Here I am with every reason to be happy and yet that ugly bastard raises its head…
No one likes to admit (even to ourselves) that we struggle with some level of insecurity at times…but hey, we all do. I’ll say to myself, “Queen, you have NO business doubting yourself…you know who you are and what you’re capable of.” Yet somehow the negative mind chatter and feelings of self-doubt find a way to seep into fresh waters. Unwanted fears pop up and make unrealistic demands upon us, steal our joy, and seek to drive a wedge between you and God’s plan.
During those times I get out of my head and into the higher self (spirit), so to be a loving and objective observer of the negative emotions. However, there are times I don’t succeed and find myself feeling momentarily crappy and confused. Along this journey (life) I’ve learned not to run from, but embrace the waves. Mediate, pray, and release. Flow with the feelings, follow them through the valley, and before long they’ll show you the root of the storm. Insecurities are not of God. Stay woke. Recognize aspects of spiritual warfare when they occur. The enemy will perpetually use old hurts, fears, desires, limiting beliefs, haters or whatever else against us…but it can only hold you back if you let it. Conquering negative energy is an ongoing part of the spiritual journey. God knows, it’s a daily exercise as this third dimension is purely a test of our faith and perseverance. Are you not bigger than the sum of your fears?
We all have inner demons to fight, we call these demons fear and hatred and anger. If you do not conquer them then a life of 100 years is a tragedy; if you do the life of a single day is a triumph. ~Bruce Lee