Silver Lining

Silver Lining

Here I am with every reason to be happy and yet that ugly bastard raises its head…

No one likes to admit (even to ourselves) that we struggle with some level of insecurity at times…but hey, we all do. I’ll say to myself, “Queenyou have NO business doubting yourself…you know who you are and what you’re capable of.” Yet somehow the negative mind chatter and feelings of self-doubt find a way to seep into fresh waters. Unwanted fears pop up and make unrealistic demands upon us, steal our joy, and seek to drive a wedge between you and God’s plan.

During those times I get out of my head and into the higher self (spirit), so to be a loving and objective observer of the negative emotions. However, there are times I don’t succeed and find myself feeling momentarily crappy and confused. Along this journey (life) I’ve learned not to run from, but embrace the waves. Mediate, pray, and release. Flow with the feelings, follow them through the valley, and before long they’ll show you the root of the storm. Insecurities are not of God. Stay woke. Recognize aspects of spiritual warfare when they occur. The enemy will perpetually use old hurts, fears, desires, limiting beliefs, haters or whatever else against us…but it can only hold you back if you let it. Conquering negative energy is an ongoing part of the spiritual journey. God knows, it’s a daily exercise as this third dimension is purely a test of our faith and perseverance. Are you not bigger than the sum of your fears?

We all have inner demons to fight, we call these demons fear and hatred and anger. If you do not conquer them then a life of 100 years is a tragedy; if you do the life of a single day is a triumph. ~Bruce Lee
People kickback, talk about the ways of the world, and how they would never sell their soul like so and so. Yet, when we lose self-control and surrender to negative emotions, people, and situations, bit by bit we lose precious parts of ourselves. The only way to rise above is to get low, and face our demons head on — which is a scary and at times lonely process — but running from the shadow self only blocks inner growth, healing, and peace. In these last days, the enemy is doing everything in its (limited) power to divide and conquer — sewing division in families, jealousy and strife amongst friends, a wedge between all those who dare to love one another, and doubt within ourselves. Issues arise and in our hurt, confusion, or anger we say things we don’t really mean, and let insecurities get the better of us.
Don’t allow the enemy to bait, influence, and use your fears and insecurities against you (or others for that matter). Instead take heart in knowing that we’ve been granted the ultimate power and authority (by God) to rise above such things. With each new day, is a renewed opportunity to forgive yourself and others, rediscover the path, brace for the lessons, then embrace truth and light. Sometimes we must go through darkness — those scary, undesirable parts of our existence in order to evolve into our higher selves. No matter what is going on around you, never forget that the war isn’t actually happening around us, but within us.

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